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with so many thoughts that do come into mind.. i at those times tend to change these thoughts into some pleasant,
i tend to think that with these negative vibes how shall i be able to live and for how long.. still i like to live life as one decent,

in life i know i have not found much of the mental reliefs n happiness but still amidst these i try searching for these,
may be imaginary but these do matter since these are priceless and i searched in my mind and did all to appease,

my tense nerves and what not.. and i know i have not disturbed any nor have i asked any for favor neither a couch to sit along,
i know i am a loner and most of the times alone.. and a lots of insecurities do creep up.. yet i shed these just to say i belong,

as a person to one illuminating with good things in life with in.. and here i again know these are my pleasant precepts, 
for someone i know exist somewhere.. well i know.. inventive and introspective.. and practically hmmn extrovert,

the one who likes to talk talk talk with friends on larger greater and magnum and infinite scales,
i dont know what better recipe that likes to know from friend.. let it be.. why should i bother for such trails,

anyway.. the stories in life differ hence my story also differs in all ways to stories of and in your life,
i like to live at ease with my own self esteem.. i trouble none nor i do give bad names that may put strife.....


                                        in their life...........