am i....

am i.. i do not know.. what i know is simple,
i am not preferred at all.. reason in smiles or dimples,

that i do not have.. money.. fame.. power.. or in any such,
political affiliations.. political bonding none.. but no grouch, 

since i am not frustrated neither am i lost to see other succeed,
with clean self esteem it is what i am...what can be the proceeds,

then.. 

for you to decide.. since in arrangements n equality,
i am none equal to you.. my destiny na.. not the worry to such duality,

where else you belong is your space.. n your places,
i do not belong to those.. as per your sayings.. have graces.....



              to quit n leave....:)

Once....

just for once it happened and thereafter some one became the own ever and forever,
stayed persisted... longed through heart.. genuinely crossed the way as beautiful and as if never,

was such before.. nor could any other be.. though the matters of beauty could only be experienced by a few,
or many and why not.. beauty is after all to see... and to be touched and kissed by one she allowed n knew,

who??? i guess a lots shall say " yeah i am".. though i believe she would have said to few.. no No NO.. not to offend,
and if i were one such.. alright i would say.. your life and your preference.. your likes to persist n i bend,

and quit.. never to malign you.. never to stalk you.. never to talk rubbish about you and for you,
after all what is in the relations besides having regards.. hence keeping memories trim fit fresh and true,

gone i would say and would like to listen that mesmerizing song... gone Gone GONE.. my life is now turned... exceeeeellent, 
from good enough.. i believe.. but what about one blood thirsty tyrant huffy..who remains haughty and adamant,

and keeps haunting and chasing... disgustedly.. as person in disguise.. why i dont know.. though all can see his ways,
of extreme disgust.. much like a derailed engine.. that has lost its path.. thus runs after passerbys.. much as super gay,

in search of some like me to pierce from behind.. and here i said no No NO.. said life of you shall be of what with me,
sorry i said.. my likings and habits still are good n beautiful enough.. anyway pardon me and on me please dont spree,

the disgust and disgrace.. i am nothing of that type.. and i just like to be one likable through the beautiful's eyes,  
and this is the normal way of living since except you each lives this way... problem kya hai apko.. and you why,

are after me.. stalking.. window peeping.. etc etc.. and what kind of mannism has been left in you,
that you tend tobe such kind of dictator.. you have to retrospect your behavior.. look in age i grew,

from that child who was abused.. to middle age human.. and finally to each sensible human with fit enough IT,
with prowess with in.. that how would you impress your woman you love.. tarnish.. abuse.. or garnish and enthuse as sporty FIT....


                                              waiting......:)