And then...

And then after many days & nights of extreme hardships n trials,
I got a faint strength & courage to recoup again & alter troubled dials,

that had numbers of pains & hurts only one to ten,
I very feebly rose up to change these to numbers now from then,

then this was & now it is.. get a resolve in mind to stay n feel content,
for own happiness & peace of mind but with mind of having intent,

to fulfill own desires.. to have some meagre luxurious life
of spreading large on own couch... of being in bed with wife,

though I know these are fantasies of me.. yet at times I feel,
sorry for me for such journey of life where I have to peel,

me off for staying away from sex.. all because no consent,
of.. blah blah blah.. nevertheless all is well since there is intent..

           hopefully apni bhi night aayegee..

                           👴🏼🙏..

Pain..🙏

Pain.. pain.. yeah emotional n physical n I persisted with u yet again,
and for no gain..yeah you know this that I haven't got any gain,

From you or at expanse of you n I always treat u as my friend,
who for unknown reasons remains bitter to me as trend,

Let it be n let you be like this.. have no guts to fight with you,
reason you have no face.. all you have the whole penetration in true,

to inflict the you.. the pain unto all those who never betrayed,
rather remained faithfully sincere n never went astrayed,

Pain.. for the first time from me emerged with pleasant smile,
said.. yeah I know.. but I find you so close to me in my hearty profile,

I just like to be with you.. I know in recent as your enduring pain,
but as final analysis shall like to be remembered as Gain,

That happened to you inadvertently with out your knowledge,
to make you strong yet humble.. and human.. if yes do acknowledge..

.......... Yes I do......Thanks...🙏