Death..

Death.. you are a poem with an infinite sonnet,
you are an eternal friend driving a car with swanky bonnet,

and when you arrive horning in with all muses & raves,
literally carrying along with you.. your muse from pave,

life ends & the end begins it's journey of another life,
hopefully much better than the past that was full of strife,

well I literally shall not be in know who I was n who I shall be,
may be my karma decided it & shall decide..My Life tree,

in any way... Na Bhooto na bhaviyshati..all I know is the present,
Or the gift of God called life whose end is definite & hopefully pleasant...

                O God..🙏🙏🙏👴🏼

Lists

Don't know how but on one fiery noon a voice from horizon came,
Did see hither n thither.. checked mobile but all in vain,

since the voice was of invisible.. who I thought was God,
Son.. The voice pronounced me as such.. applaud,

Since finally I have arrived to ease out yours worries & sorrows,
Get me your list of these & hopefully all be okay by tomorrow,

List 😀... Sorry God.. it's a long one or rather it's a worry book,
give me some time to scribble.. please please.. n please first look,

into millions n trillions of worries of those whose deeds are sowed,
in anticipation of good fruit but can get soiled coz levels lowed,

of humanity & of course water in earth that's been parched now,
and my book is just insignificant in comparison.. Hence allow,

Me to request you.. to pray you.. to fall into your feet,
for showering your blessings infinitely & & until you treat..

     All with your bounty.. O God..🙏

Times fly..

Times fly & gets spend & all that remain are memories,
none returns from times gone by to tell untold stories,

The mysteries of the past get buried along with time,
only heresy flies with claims of my vision as real & sublime,

let these be as per their claims but as one living I could know,
I shall never be returning to gone days.. highs n low,

I mean all I can retract are the moments from times gone by,
to memorize these again through the lanes of blue skies,

through the galaxies of stars that twinkle bid n wrinkle,
through the imaginative retractions that shine & sprinkle,

all the moments that I lived in time gone through & past,
and I choose to recall good only.. Good that always last,

as memories..

Dhirtrashra..

who was he all know n who as rulers did see no ills,
to woes of literally billions.. reason these threw no frills,

to let their woes know for these believed in rulers who used to rule,
at those times n thought they were into effect change n not to fool,

but alas literally any ordinary could know that these were in to fill,
their wallets n lockers to hoard trillions so that these could make a kill,

from their born fortunes.. n all could know it's so special to,
get born into this family where all misdeeds just gets through,

into Oblivion..as null n void.. n none had the courage and strength,
to utter a single word against their injustices of decades length,

these held no value for us except as one vote on our dates to votes,
n a few under patronage of one scholar dhirtrashtra got deeds n notes,

in favour of them to acquire Lands from Indraprasth regions,
at peanuts prices.. and literally all know that these happened treasons,

to nation.. courtesy one scholar.. n how its ok to forgo their misdeeds,
God shall let them know one day definitely but before shouldn't we plead,

to us own.. thru our silent yet collective strength on day of vote,
to let these be history forever.. though these still keep having notes,

Promisery of course with full of deeds at their lands of their loots,
n for utter blind king the singh.. nothing happened as he too got his fruit,

to remain blind... may be to enable them to shout abuse n contest,
elections na.. but at end of day shall do what when to face toughest,

the God itself.. Who knows all n witness all n now to let know what u did,
all unto God to decide.. who knows all.. sees all.. n do never forbids,

n that's why Such is God n all others who actually knew,
That God does never forbids... one is to pay for one's sins in true...

   

And then...

And then after many days & nights of extreme hardships n trials,
I got a faint strength & courage to recoup again & alter troubled dials,

that had numbers of pains & hurts only one to ten,
I very feebly rose up to change these to numbers now from then,

then this was & now it is.. get a resolve in mind to stay n feel content,
for own happiness & peace of mind but with mind of having intent,

to fulfill own desires.. to have some meagre luxurious life
of spreading large on own couch... of being in bed with wife,

though I know these are fantasies of me.. yet at times I feel,
sorry for me for such journey of life where I have to peel,

me off for staying away from sex.. all because no consent,
of.. blah blah blah.. nevertheless all is well since there is intent..

           hopefully apni bhi night aayegee..

                           👴🏼🙏..

Pain..🙏

Pain.. pain.. yeah emotional n physical n I persisted with u yet again,
and for no gain..yeah you know this that I haven't got any gain,

From you or at expanse of you n I always treat u as my friend,
who for unknown reasons remains bitter to me as trend,

Let it be n let you be like this.. have no guts to fight with you,
reason you have no face.. all you have the whole penetration in true,

to inflict the you.. the pain unto all those who never betrayed,
rather remained faithfully sincere n never went astrayed,

Pain.. for the first time from me emerged with pleasant smile,
said.. yeah I know.. but I find you so close to me in my hearty profile,

I just like to be with you.. I know in recent as your enduring pain,
but as final analysis shall like to be remembered as Gain,

That happened to you inadvertently with out your knowledge,
to make you strong yet humble.. and human.. if yes do acknowledge..

.......... Yes I do......Thanks...🙏

Unavailable..

While being full of emotions I felt reciprocating emotions were unavailable,
My error was I continued with these thinking these were sailable,

Hence can be carried to their end in anticipation of these being endorsed,
but no no.. that wasn't the case.. they were all hips wires n engrossed,

in their own talks n ways to celebrate yet another night full of mugs,
of beers n wines.. the pegs of scotchs n whiskeys in their clubs,

well well well.. at times I tend to feel myself as one saviour,
who is out to solve problems in filmi ways.. Damn to my this behavior,

I learn my lesson perhaps this way.. n say to me.. apni hud mei rahoo,
where is the need to be this or that n have u been able to solve own woes,

nai na.. then Bhai focus on solving own loads of worries,
that flow in plenty these days n learn not to be in hurry,

of being self proclaimed saviour.. lessons lessons n lessons,
stay real n practical.. solve own worries.. live life with own passion..